Love, Commitment and Trust

LDR, many failed but few has conquered the obstacles brought by the infamous relationship. I haven't been into one, but soon I will be.. Will I vanquish the malevolence of this treacherous villain or will I stumble and concede to the victory it claims. I leave it all to fate. I am certain about my love and loyalty to the person I love. I vowed to stay committed and will never be overwhelmed by the tempest that may come along the way. But only the Heavens can tell...

I'm happy... but restless... I'm certain, but anxious, with what? By what?

Circumstances. Sigh... Changes can be good, but it can be bad sometimes. A person who is so inloved can't seem to care much about the threat that can cause the downfall of a relationship, everything is painted in red, everything is light, beautiful.. endless. Often times these are the kinds caught unguarded and may end up embracing themselves crying and feeling sorry for laying down their defenses. Being aware that this situation exist, it is real,  and  is inevitable would save you from the ultimate heartache. Denying the fact and closing your mind to the possibilities would give you your eternal regret.. regret of not trying what could have been done better, what could have been avoided. Seeing the love of your life slip away from your very own eyes is one of the most agonizing feeling there is, especially when you realized that its too late to make amends. Being 100% sure about your feelings, about yourself isn't enough to defeat the world. It must be accompanied by being keen to all the possible predicaments.

Iloveyou... I sure do... Our relationship has not been built for ages, but i trust that no matter what happens, we'll make this as a two-way concrete street.

STAY AWAY FROM THE HIGH-WAY...

A Note On Valentine's Day

Baby,

Happy Valentine's Day. I have loved you always in my heart, even before I met you. I belong to someone else, but my heart says its you that I needed, that it's you that I want to love. Among all others, you stand out from the crowd. Life has long been gone, but you were there, you bound the remaining breath and united me again with my soul. You were so lovely the first time we met, your presence brought warmth to my entirety. Until now... you never fail to give me joy. You bring satisfaction to all of my desires. You fulfilled my destiny. You are my long lost love that I have been searching for all my life. I never want you anywhere but by my side. I cannot foresee what lies ahead of us, but I promise you, I will be strong, I will remain faithful what ever the cost maybe. Now, time is stealing you away from me... I can only imagine how miserable it will be without you right next to me, but what is 365 days of absence for a lifetime that we will share? I don't care. I'm not delighted to see you go, but I can handle it, just as long as you will come back to me, in one piece, with the same heart, with the same mind... with the same love that you always have for me. Baby, this is a promise, I will love you until we both shall live. Be safe always and take good care of you health.

Sigh...

It's 12:32 AM.. I can't sleep... You are all over my system.. I'm worried of something. I possibly know it but I can't understand. You made me love you so much, and now I have fallen so deep. I love you, and I cannot even find a trace of how this happened. I want to be with you every minute of each day, holding you close to me. You don't need to speak.. We don't need to talk. I'm contented and fulfilled just being beside you. I could stare at you forever... I can't think of anything worse, than waking up one morning and you are gone.. It makes me weak inside out... I couldn't get a hold of life without you.. You are my life now... I don't know, I can't say much... I dont make sense.. I'm speaking garbage. I have a lot of uncertainties in my mind. Its blowing away my sanity. Hormonal imbalance, well possible.. But I want nothing else but to feel your embrace tonight. I want you.. I need you so badly... You find me strong, but I am not that tough, I can't be tough without you... You complement me when I'm doing something good. You correct me whenever I make a mistake. You define things for me when I am confused. You are everything to me.. You are my world... you are my one and only love...

Scary Truth

I feel alive whenever you are near. Your embrace gives warmth to the coldness of my being. All my worries, all my doubts vanish everytime your presence envelopes me. You calm my soul. You brighten my world. You give color to my black and whites. I couldn't ask for anything else in the world just as long as you are with me. but..........

I'm scared.

You are about to go away. I can literally feel and taste how it's like to be lonely. To be alone. It's like sailing in an open sea looking into the dark clouds ahead of me. I don't know what lies in it, clueless how the journey will go. I'm clinging into this raft floating against the angry winds, I'm definite that I can hold on to it, but I can't be certain if the slabs have been fastened strongly enough. Taking chances has been our bestfriend even before we started this relationship and it resulted to something great and wonderful. I do wish, all day everyday that nomatter how small this little boat is, it could conquer the impossibilities.

I don't know the intensity of your ambiguity.. same as im not sure with mine... Can you give me something to hold on to? A strong one.. They say love can conquer the distance and time, but it isn't easy.. you know its not easy. I dont know what to think anymore.. I hate and dont want to see things ahead.. but.......

I'm scared...