Woooot.....

Baguio here we come.. :) heading to the summer capital of the Philippines with my partner. Weeeeeh!!! Weather please calm down. This might be our last out of town this year so cooperate and behave.. Went through a lot though, but all is well.. Thanks Chief, you made evrything smooth, weather na lang po.. :)

Metro Manila... will be back in no time... adia!! I'm outa here.

Loneliness

I am lonely... a deep solitude is overwheming my consciousness. i am encapsulated by the fact that I'd be alone this entire year. no remorse.. no hesitation on what is bound to happen. I just feel desolated. I don't want to cry. I don't want you to see me cry. But at some point, no matter how I try to withhold it, it's still conspicuous.. Im battling with my thoughts of what should I and should i not feel. I am delighted by the fact that you will gain things that no people normally can experience. But I am evaded by the cruel fact that you will be away from me for that long. I am with you almost everyday, but within the 6 months time, still, I can't get enough of you. I want to be with you some more. I want you by my side each and every moment. I want to see you smile, frown, giggle, even to see you get mad, get all moody and stuff.. i dont care.. I want you... you right next to me. holding your hands. touching your face.. kissing you endlessly. I can't so far make out a picture without you near me. But still... i am hoping and praying for the best. I wish fo nothing else but for you to succeed in every endeavor that you'll take. Just please remember me... remember how we are and how we are planning to be. I know there'd be a lot more years allotted for us. I am holding on for your love.. and I promise you.. I'll be here waiting...

Nuninuninu...

I am thinking about the things in the past. I realized, it has been almost 7 months when I was all messed up. Bored with my life, wanting a new. Have I been curious or has it been the reflection of the unconscious craving for something, someone better. Who would know? I know who and what I am so well but when it comes to something I want, I argue with my own self. Frequently I lose focus deciding on what is necessary from what's inessential. How bad could it be if I cease thinking and anticipating on things that are yet to come? No.. I should be ready. I shouldn't be putting down my shields.. my defenses. It will help me in the long run.

Though it scares me i still find being inlove is a wonder. It gives endless illumination to the darkened soul. It radiates throughout and gives life to ones diminishing glow. You gave me love... unconditional, it may have extra baggages before but its now my own. We can always promise that we can stay together.. we can promise that we will keep loving each other.. but there are inevitables.. we can only promise now and hope that it will stay that way forever.