Starting A New

Things can be very confusing sometimes.. but if you come to think of it deeper..
dig into the the deepest structure of such occurence.. fiber by fiber..
you might come up with a clear explanation why things supposed to happen..
but how are you going to do that? how can one ever start the process.. when
there isn't enough foundation..

I can remember myself way back.. saying after i fail.. i won't try again..
After this.. i might as well forget how its like to be in it..
if this will come to an end.. i won't start all over again..
but look at me now.. i've begun packing up..i've started journeying once more..
the road that im heading to might not be as smooth as that of the OLD one..
but atleast.. i've tried.. Who knows, this turn leads me somewhere better..

just some TIME ago, i stopped in the middle of my thinking, and sized myself up..
i caressed my wounds.. felt my cuts AND bruises.. they're still there..
but i think, it doesn't hurt that much anymore.. i pressed them harder..
they have healed i guess.. im drifting away FROM the painful truth OF the past..
slowly.. i'm reaching the end of the stormy sky..
i've come to realize one thing.. there is really such thing as happiness when you convince yourself that there is.. lay some prof.. lay some evidence AND facts that would
make it real.. that will make it TRUE..