WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT

Look at us.. who would have thought we could get this far.
Who would have thought we could hang on together..
Life is not easy.. rough times.. bumps here and there.. they are all around.
You are surprisingly incredible and one of a kind, 46th months -
You could have spent this with someone.. Better.. far better than I..

We've been together now for such a long time..
I almost forgot how we've managed to hold on through these years..

Remember when we first met? Somewhere out there -
A lonesome place where no one would believe that 2 people could meet-
2 people with different prospectives in life.. 2 people who will build a beautiful story.
Yes... we have made our story.. a very beautiful one worth reading for .
Sweetheart, i hope and pray
That this story - like all others, will end.. but not soon..
not within the next million years..

I love you.. as always..
and i will be loving you for the rest of my years..
I'm there for you... no matter what..
You will always be my hearts desire.. no one else..
So hang on tight.. i know, a lot more bumps, twists and turns are heading our way..
But take my hand.. i won't let go.
We can do this.. i trust you just as you do to me..

Some Note..

Just last night you sat beside me..i held you near..
it felt so good having you around and feeling the warmth of your embrace..
I could have said so much but words elude me..
i may have pass the chance to tell you how much you mean to me..
i might have miss showing you how much i care..
but deep inside..i know and i am certain that it is there..

many times i wonder if you do feel the same way..
of course you don't..not as much as i do..
but it doesn't matter..what's important is..
you are giving a damn..you are crossing your extent
for the sake of this relationship and i very much appreciate that..

i never fail to notice..not even a single moment how hard you always try..
you've done your best to make things work.
it can be so simple it can be so small..
every little thing counts..so don't ever wonder
and don't ever feel bad if i don't seem to recognize them..
I swear I do but you know that I am a person of few words..
i want you to know even if i rarely speak about it.. i keep them in my heart.. these are the reasons why i look forward to having the day done..
so i can be with you again..

Message To The Special One

I love it when you smile..
Your lovely eyes..the power of your personality.. it consumes the whole me..
I lost all the words.. I cannot define it.. I cannot even describe it..

You make me feel so special.. you make me feel like I'm no ordinary..
Your love, so intense yet so warm, it soothes my mind
I don't want to be away from you.. I dont want to lose you..
Please let me feel secure..
There will be some rough times, I know, but don't make that a reason to leave..
stay with me.. take away everything.. everything but you..
Because I can't see any more reason why I want to face another morning and why I have to go on..

don't ever go.. iloveyou.

Hidden Testimony

I have been through a lot of lies in my life
lies that i kept hiding so others won't see..
I've established a name so others can look up at me..
but i am not what they think i am..
i am just a weak, inept, lonesome person, concealing the real me
behind the shadow of that someone they used to know.
people are blinded by my laughs.. by my jokes..by my silly moves

they never realized...

loneliness deep w/n my eyes have been covered by the good delivery of my acts.
others have been tricked by the smooth gestures i show..

and there, the faint light of discovery once again vanishes in thin air..

i've been searching for answers to all my confussions and questions..
I've been wanting to end all doubts in my mind.
but the knowledge acquired from mortal intelligence
has always been useless..

i am a nobody..
i am trapped on this sinking sand.. every move i make nails me deeper..
my soul is in deep agony..
the torturous reality sores my entire personality..
there's nothing left for me to keep moving on.. nothing else but my heart..
my broken and bruised heart..
I have a lot more love to give,
more than willing to share..
but noone seems to want it.. a very sad reality..

twice i have tried.. twice i have failed
now this heart is once again been swept away..
i cannot promise you that i will be the best,
but i can love you the way i am supposed to
I will love you in the best way i know..
and in the best possible way i can